Eliminating My Attachment to Complaining

(Minghui.org) I had a strong attachment to complaint and hatred. Whenever things did not go my way I became so angry that I trembled. Whenever I remembered that Master asked us to look within, I thought I did well, but I blamed the other person for causing problems. I thought: “If he hadn’t caused the issue, I wouldn’t have behaved this way.”

Because of my attachment I only looked at the issue from my perspective. The more I thought about it, the more angry I became and the more I felt the situation was unfair.

Master saw that I did not understand the Fa on this matter so he arranged for me to fall to remind me. Time and again, I fell so hard that I hurt all over, but I just did not enlighten. I knew I had difficulty understanding the Fa, so I told myself that I must be determined to attain the state that Master mentioned, which is to become a cultivator whose body is still meditating even if his head was cut off. I knew I had to eliminate my attachment to complaint and hatred, because that was not the real me.

After Master’s articles “How Humankind Came To Be” and “Why Save Sentient Beings,” were published, many practitioners memorized them and recited them to people when they clarified the truth about the persecution. I also wanted to memorize the articles so I began memorizing “Why Save Sentient Beings.” It took me two days.

As I memorized I realized that Master is great and endured great difficulties in order to save people. Not only did Master give us life, he used his divine body to help sentient beings eliminate their bad karma. In order to save people, Master gave everything of his, and even more which we cannot imagine. Then I memorized “How Humankind Came To Be.”

On May 26, 2024, I was about to bring my grandson to school when my husband said that he also wanted to go. As soon as we arrived, my husband drove off. When he returned that afternoon he said, “I backed into someone’s car.” I asked him if anyone was hurt and he said no. The other person’s car wasn’t damaged, but our car had a big dent.

When I heard this, I realized this was an opportunity for me to improve my xinxing. This time, instead of getting angry I silently recited the Fa. The more I recited, the brighter my heart felt and I was not angry.

I realized that my husband did not damage our car on purpose and he was very anxious. In the past, I would have flown into a rage and not care about his feelings. Even if it was just a small scratch in the car paint, I would have been enraged. This time, since I was memorizing Master’s articles, I knew I should look at problems based on the Fa. My heart was calm as though nothing happened.

I should have eliminated this attachment long ago. This is the first cultivation sharing article I’ve ever written. Please kindly correct me if there is any room for improvement.

Thank you, Master!