Eliminating Resentment

(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa before the persecution began in 1999. Despite many years of ups and downs, I’ve continued walking on my cultivation path. Over the years, I benefited from the profound and extraordinary Fa (teachings). Bathed in Master’s boundless compassion I’ve been incredibly blessed.

Letting Go of Complaints Toward Practitioners

Since the Chinese Communist Party’s persecution of Falun Dafa began on July 20, 1999, I took on the responsibility of delivering truth-clarifying materials to other practitioners in remote areas. Over the years, rain or shine, I always delivered them to the designated locations on time.

Feng was responsible for receiving the materials, but Song took over. However, he was often late to arrive at the agreed locations. He had a bad habit of always keeping his phone with him, which was not safe for us to meet. Eventually, I had no choice but to deliver the materials directly to his residence. With the added travel distance, I found myself rushing and I returned home late. Since I had been persecuted in the past, my family couldn’t understand why I continued delivering materials. I felt anxious and several times wanted to ask Song what was wrong, but I held back. I asked myself: “Why couldn’t I be more decisive? Why did I continue helping him?”

I calmed down and looked inward: “Why did I see these cultivation states in Song? What should I do? Was this an opportunity to cultivate away my impatience, my inability to tolerate, and resentment?” I realized that I should follow Master’s teachings and work on improving myself. I can’t change other people’s behavior, but I could change myself.

One time, I was delivering materials in heavy rain, and I struggled to climb a hill. At that moment, I heard a loud voice say: “Love your sentient beings and fellow practitioners.” My confidence was greatly strengthened. I realized that this was my responsibility and I couldn’t resent others. Afterward, I gave Song several articles about mobile phone security, and each time we met, we encouraged each other. Gradually, we both rectified ourselves in the Fa, our goals became clearer, and everything fell into place. I am deeply grateful for Master’s compassionate protection.

One time, I arrived at the agreed location on time, only to find that Song was not there. I thought that I would just deliver the materials to his home. As I neared his residence, I saw him walking slowly towards me with another practitioner. Afterward, I learned that they were not looking for me to get the materials. They just happened to be walking in my direction. I immediately realized that Master had arranged for them to be there. I understood that it was encouragement from Master to maintain the right mindset and continue persevering.

I am deeply grateful to Master for always caring for every practitioner. I can only strive to further improve myself.

Letting Go of Resentment Toward Family

There was a period of time when I constantly resented my family and I didn’t handle some situations rationally. I felt troubled and burdened, and I only focused on others’ behaviors. By looking outward, I attracted more tribulations, and I was unable to understand why things were happening this way. I felt I hadn’t done anything wrong. I was still doing the three things practitioners should do, and handling almost all the household chores, but my husband didn’t understand me. I worked hard and was always willing to endure, yet I couldn’t understand where I had gone wrong. I felt deeply wronged.

During the COVID pandemic, when we were required to do a nucleic acid test, my husband was more eager than anyone and insisted I go with him. I reluctantly agreed, but I couldn’t stop complaining in my mind, even glaring at him. As a result, I was soon afflicted with a painful boil near my eyebrow.

A fellow practitioner advised me: “Quickly let go of your resentment toward him. Don’t let the old forces take advantage of your loophole. We only walk the cultivation path arranged by Master, as everything in this world is an illusion. Why are you experiencing these tribulations? After so many years of cultivation, your attachments haven’t been eliminated, and your xinxing hasn’t improved to the level of a cultivator. You still think others are doing wrong to you. As a practitioner, you should measure everything according to the Fa. What manifests in front of you is an opportunity to cultivate and improve your xinxing. You should be grateful to others for creating this opportunity so you can cultivate and improve.

“As a practitioner, you must follow the Fa to truly cultivate. You should not resent others, but instead, be grateful to them. This is the true manifestation of a Falun Dafa practitioner. Only by doing this can you truly improve and reach the level of a genuine cultivator. If you can do this, you will no longer see such behavior from others.”

The practitioner’s words deeply moved me, and I felt and filled with compassion. Gradually, I let go of my imbalanced feelings and resentment. I realized that only by studying the Fa more, assimilating to the Fa and cultivating genuinely and solidly, can I eliminate various attachments and human notions. I also gained a deeper understanding of Master’s repeated emphasis on the importance of studying the Fa well.

As time for Fa-rectification cultivation is running out, I must use righteous thoughts to break free from human notions, and strengthen my main consciousness. I will handle everything with a practitioner’s mindset, help Master to save more people, and return to my sacred and beautiful home with Master.