Why Do “I” Always Feel Troubled?

(Minghui.org) I have been practicing Falun Dafa for more than 20 years. Recently, through studying the Fa, I truly realized that I haven’t been cultivating diligently.

Especially in everyday life, whether at home or in society, whenever I see others doing things differently from how I think they should be done, my first reaction isn’t to look within. I mistakenly took my false self as my true self. Instead of reflecting on myself, when I notice others’ shortcomings, I start complaining about how they are doing things wrong.

Sometimes, when others don’t follow my way of thinking, I even develop resentment and often feel unhappy. In reality, my growing ego strengthened my human attachments. I mistakenly think that I am the one feeling upset, but in fact, it is my ego that complains. If I can recognize that this is not my true self and firmly deny and eliminate these negative thoughts, the situation will change.

However, I haven’t cultivated well in this regard. At home, I constantly see things I don’t agree with. I often feel troubled because I fail to use the Fa to guide my behavior.

I have realized that if I don’t follow the Fa principles and fail to cultivate my every thought, I will struggle and suffer without truly cultivating myself. Only by treating challenges as opportunities to improve my character can I truly improve.

As a cultivator, I should see any complex environment as the best opportunity to improve myself and improve my level. If that’s the case, shouldn’t I be grateful to my family members? I really should be! They are like mirrors, reflecting my human attachments so I can recognize and eliminate my attachments faster. This helps me improve and make progress in my cultivation. Isn’t that great? I truly need to thank them.

The same applies to people in society and fellow practitioners. They are also mirrors of what I should change within myself. That’s why I sincerely thank everyone who has created challenges for me on my cultivation path. At the same time, I am sincerely grateful to our compassionate Master for using every environment in family and society to help me uncover and remove my deeply hidden attachments.

Moving forward, I will strengthen my righteous thoughts, distinguish between my true self and my false self, and eliminate each attachment and human notion. In this new phase of the Fa-rectification, I will try to keep up, cultivate myself well, do the three things well, and ultimately follow Master to my real home.