Getting Rid of Jealousy

(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa before 1999. Every time when I studied the Fa and read what Master taught about jealousy in Zhuan Falun, I didn’t take it seriously because I believed that I wasn’t jealous.

A practitioner said: “Everyone has jealousy; some are milder and some are more severe.” I didn’t take it to heart either, thinking that I was quite good when it came to the jealousy issue. I recalled that before I started practicing Falun Dafa, I thought it was ridiculous when my colleagues were getting angry and fought with each other because of jealousy at work. But, at that time, I had not yet reached the state where I would be happy for others who were doing well.

But jealousy has been bothering me since I started working. Whenever I encountered the events like receiving a salary raise or outstanding employee awards, I would try my best to push them away, but most of the time I couldn’t. Therefore I was often in a bad mood and felt uncomfortable when people envied me. I told my child to work hard and not accept any praise or special treatment to avoid attracting jealousy.

I have been practicing Dafa for more than 20 years, and occasionally I would hear fellow practitioners saying to me: “Practitioner Aihua only listens to you!” I heard the same comment a few more times at other occasions but I didn’t take it seriously.

I experienced sickness karma two years ago and could not overcome it after more than a year. Other practitioners came to my home to help me and study the Fa together. Thus, a Fa-study group was established in my home. Some practitioners said that I had a serious desire to do Dafa work, so I should study the Fa at home, do the exercises, share with other practitioners, and look within.

Among the practitioners coming to join the Fa study group at my home was Aihua. She had followed me to another Fa study group two years ago. My younger sister, also a practitioner, once pointed out to me that I enjoyed having Aihua follow me. But, I didn’t think that it was an issue for me, so I didn’t look inward.

Until a new practitioner Beiyu came to my home and help us look inward, find attachments, and send forth righteous thoughts to dissolve them. After sending forth righteous thoughts for a long time, I really felt different. Not only did my environment improve, but my mind and body also changed. Everyone in our group felt that we had improved a lot.

Practitioner Beiyu came once a week for half a year. Recently, I noticed that Aihua would follow Beiyu around whenever Beiyu came. I felt uncomfortable and distressed. Was it my jealousy? I recalled how I had caused jealousy in the past. Maybe it was because I was jealous of others in the past lives, and now I had to pay back in this life. Suddenly, I felt enlightened and everything became clear.

I am really grateful to Aihua for helping me find out that I certainly had jealousy, and it was buried so deep within me. I thought, “The jealousy is not me, I don’t want it.” Master took away my jealousy, and I no longer felt uncomfortable and distressed.

Practitioners of our group also shared with Aihua sincerely about her mentality of playing favorites and benefit-seeking. After she understood, she repeated it twice happily, “I will definitely change, I will definitely change.” Our group has improved as a whole, and we experienced what Master said in the new article “Stay Away from Peril” that we are to “mutually save and help each other.”

Thank you, Master, for saving me!Thank you, fellow practitioners, for your selfless help!