Eliminating My Resentment While Being Tempered in Cultivation

(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa in July 1996 because I was ill. I am now 62 years old. I had many ailments, including reduced blood flow to the brain, neurasthenia, bone hyperplasia, stomach disease, adnexitis, anemia, and more. Soon after I began practicing, all my illnesses disappeared, and I haven’t had the need to take any medication in the past 28 years.

Eliminating Resentment Toward the Community Staff

During my cultivation, I developed a deeply hidden fear. I went to Beijing to appeal for the right to practice Falun Dafa in 2001. I was arrested but managed to escape from the police office in Beijing. For all these years, that experience hindered me from clarifying the facts to the community staff and police officers in an upright manner because I was afraid of being arrested again.

After I joined the campaign to bring former Chinese Communist Party (CCP) leader Jiang Zemin to justice using my real name, community staff came to harass me. The Chinese Communist Party (CCP) carried out the so-called “door-knocking” strategy in 2020. They came to every household to check if anyone practiced Falun Dafa. When the building manager came knocking at my door, because I thought it was a practitioner, I opened it. As soon as I saw that it was the building manager, I slammed the door in her face. This made her very upset, and she reported me to the community management.

The next day, a group of people from the community knocked on my door, shouting, “Open the door, we are from the community management.” I was so scared that my heart was pounding. I sat down and sent forth righteous thoughts for a while, and my heart calmed down, and the people at the door left.

In the evening, the community secretary called me, but I didn’t dare to answer. She sent me a text message, reading, “Just sign it.” Meaning, to sign the guarantee statement to stop practicing Falun Dafa.

I replied, “All my illnesses have been cured through this practice. How can I sign it? I can only be grateful.”

When she saw that she couldn’t shake my firm belief, she called my son and tricked him into signing, causing him to commit a crime against Dafa. This all came down to my fear.

I ran into the CCP Secretary of the community and said, “Don’t get involved in Falun Dafa matters. What if Dafa is vindicated one day, what will you do?”

“We can’t do anything about it,” she responded, “Our top leaders tell us what to do.” I realized that my tone wasn’t kind and I lacked compassion.

In 2024, when I returned home from clarifying the facts, a community worker called me and asked me in a very strong tone: “Where have you been? Where are you just now?”

I replied, “What does it have to do with you? Did I commit a crime? What do you want?!” My voice got louder and louder as I spoke to her.

When I hung up the phone, I regretted not telling her about Falun Dafa. My heart was beating fast, and I was angry. Then I wondered: “Why did I get upset?” I looked inward and found hatred for the community worker. Over the years, community staff have been harassing me, and I have always looked down on them. As I was thinking about this, I felt that they were pitiful, for they were doing bad things to earn that little money.

Clarifying the Facts and Saving Sentient Beings

After the CCP began to persecute Falun Dafa on July 20, 1999, I began to hand out informational materials and put up sticky notes that read, “Falun Dafa is wonderful!” Later, my husband and my son came with me to hand them out. I developed the attachment of zealotry, which was taken advantage of by the old forces. As a result, my father-in-law didn’t allow us to go out. He locked the front door very early every night. I waited until he fell asleep, then climbed over the wall to get out.

Despite obstacles, and with practitioners’ help, I managed to start my own home-based material production site, and it has been running smoothly ever since. I just made as many fliers as I needed to hand out.

During the pandemic, a few of us went out to distribute informational materials in our area. Someone used a large pair of scissors to cut open the wire netting, so we could get out into the community and go to other residential areas to hand out materials. I sent forth righteous thoughts while walking and asked Master to empower us. Evil elements were eliminated wherever we went. While climbing up the stairs in residential buildings, I asked sentient beings not to come out as we were passing, and only to come out after we had finished, so they could come pick them up.

Master Is in Charge of Me

For all these years of cultivation, I made breakthroughs during multiple illness karma tribulations. When I felt a bit uncomfortable, I’d think: “My life was given by Master, and he is in charge of me.” Meanwhile, through looking inward, I quickly felt better.

Last April, I went to a nearby district to put up sticky notes in the residential buildings there. When coming downstairs, the hallway was dark. I thought I had reached the last step, but I hadn’t. I fell and sprained my left ankle. Then I sprained my right ankle as I tried to stand up. I knelt on my knees and heard two cracks.

I immediately called out to Master in my mind. I thought that I must stand up. If someone saw me, they’d wonder why I was like that. I slowly stood up, leaning against the wall, and walked out of the building.

I limped along, looking inward and sorting out my thoughts. I remembered that before going out, I had some illness karma symptoms, a runny nose, and teary eyes. I wanted to have some dumplings, and there was a dumpling shop in that district that I went to while putting up some sticky notes. I found that I didn’t put the Fa first but rather “eating” first. I realized I had an attachment to food. Cultivation is so serious, so I quickly apologized to Master deep down, saying, “Master, I was wrong.”

After I went back home, I studied the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts. I began to do the exercises that evening. I thought: “What if I skip doing the exercises today? No, that wouldn’t work. For however long it takes to do them, I’ll do them.” As soon as I stood up, my feet hurt. I did the standing exercises and wanted to hold on for a while, and then for a little while longer. Before I knew it, I had finished doing the standing exercises. When it came to the sitting meditation, it took me quite a bit of effort to get into the full lotus position. It was so painful! I held on, minute by minute, and finished the one-hour meditation.

The next day, I thought I shouldn’t treat myself as being ill, but rather I should go to the store to work as usual. As soon as I went into the store, my son saw that I was limping and asked what had happened, so I told him.

He wanted to see my feet, so I took off my socks and showed him. From the five toes to the instep on my left foot, it was all purple and black. And my right ankle was all swollen.

My son said that we should go to the hospital for an X-ray. But I told him that it would be fine in two days, and refused to go.

On the third morning, I had to wash some clothes. However, I didn’t dare put my right foot on the ground, so I stomped my foot twice and said, “Walk normally, walk normally.” When I tried to walk, I could walk normally. This was truly what Master said, “...good or bad comes from a person’s initial thought...” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)

That afternoon, I held the book Zhuan Falun. While reading it, I burst into tears full of gratitude. How could I be so fortunate to obtain such a precious Dafa and have such a wonderful Master? Thank you, Master!

Eliminating Resentment Toward My Son-In-Law

My daughter gave birth in the summer of 2013, and I went to help her during the confinement period. It was during the heat of the summer, but my daughter and her husband would not let me open the windows.

Five days after their child was born, eczema began to appear on her face and then went all over her body, and was very dense. The amazing thing was that the child didn’t make a fuss, since I had her listen to Master’s lecture recordings every day. I knew she’d be fine. But my daughter was frightened and cried when she saw her baby like this. She took the baby to the hospital and got medicine to wash her skin. My son-in-law said that I was the one who covered the baby too much and opened all the windows for ventilation.

One day at around 4 p,m., my son-in-law came back from work. I was holding the child, and there was a blanket covering the child’s legs. He pulled the blanket off and shouted, “You still cover the baby’s legs like that!”

I didn’t say anything, but in my mind I complained about it. I thought, “I cook and wash clothes all day, and I pick up your socks that are thrown here and there.”

After a month of helping my daughter, I returned home. My body was not in good condition, and it seemed like something was pressing on my heart. When I was doing the sitting meditation, I realized I had resentment toward my son-in-law. I said that I didn’t want that, and instantly, something came out from my lower back with a “whoosh,” and I felt my body relax all of a sudden. The stuff that was pressing down on me was instantly removed by Master. Looking inward is such a magical tool. Thank you, Master!