Overcoming a Sickness Tribulation by Elevating My Understanding of the Fa

(Minghui.org) I experienced a severe sickness tribulation for several years and only passed the test after finding and letting go of some fundamental attachments.

My husband and I were classmates. He was very kind and loved me very much and supported my practice of Falun Dafa. After the Chinese Communist Party’s persecution of Falun Dafa began, at first he opposed my practice, but he accepted it after I put my foot down that I would never stop.

My husband has a short temper and a strong desire to control things. He is diligent and thoughtful and takes care of most big and small matters at home, but he also has the final say.

I learned to look inward in cultivation practice, and got rid of attachments such as selfishness. I have tried my best to do things according to the requirements of a practitioner. However, my husband often lost his temper with me and shut me up with strong words.

I felt depressed. Why was he still unhappy and angry after I followed the Fa to be a better and kinder person? I was confused and puzzled. Later, I developed a serious sickness karmic tribulation.

I studied the Fa intensively because at that time I knew that I must have some strong attachments that I hadn’t detected. One day, I was enlightened to the meaning of Master’s teaching:

“The complicated environment, in my view, is instead a good thing. The more complicated it is, the greater the individuals it will produce.” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)

I immediately realized that this was Master telling me that if my husband always obeyed me, was gentle and considerate, and my life was as warm and happy as I had desired, how could I improve? My husband was helping me to cultivate. After understanding the Fa, I had a wonderful feeling, a feeling I had never experienced before; a lighthearted laugh emanated from the bottom of my heart. I suddenly felt relaxed, comfortable, and happy.

I continued to look within and finally found this strong attachment, one that fellow practitioners had kindly reminded me of: sentimentality. Behind the sentimentality, I found many attachments: fear of conflict, fear of my husband being unhappy, and a fear of being hurt. It didn’t end there, I also discovered I had a desire for a warm and happy life, didn’t listen to different opinions. I was also competitive and arrogant. These are not in line with the Fa.

I let go of these fears and emotions, and strengthened my righteous thoughts. I adjusted myself and had an open and calm conversation with my husband. I told him what I didn’t dare to tell him in the past.

I told him that my enlightenment was poor and that I misunderstood the Fa although I have been practicing for many years. My attempts to make him happy had actually been to protect myself.

When I was a child and my parents fought, it made me very afraid, so I don’t quarrel so as to avoid getting hurt. I just wanted a happy family. I don’t want him to be angry and I am afraid that he would hurt me with his sharp tongue. In fact, these were selfish thoughts. Now I’ve come to understand that I can’t control his fate and I can’t make him happy forever. I can only work hard to cultivate myself, cause less trouble for him, and create less karma for myself.

After hearing this, he apologized and admitted that he had a bad temper and didn’t know that he had caused me so much pain. He said that he would improve his temper.

I also told him that I bought a computer without his approval. He was quite calm and didn’t get angry. He even reminded me to be careful when I browse the Minghui website.

My sickness karma tribulation disappeared shortly thereafter. I am grateful for Master’s compassion and salvation!