(Minghui.org) I’ve practiced Falun Dafa for more than 20 years. Dafa has constantly cleansed my body and mind, and I’ve felt Master’s compassionate salvation. I’ve tried hard to remove my attachments with differing results, but the attachment to resentment was especially strong and often interfered with me.

Earlier this year, I was going to do the Dafa exercises after dinner when my brother called unexpectedly. He heard some gossip about our mother and complained bitterly about her. I became upset and my mind was full of resentment. I forgot I was a practitioner and didn’t watch my words.

My mother is almost 90 years old and has been a farmer all her life. She’s been frugal and built houses with her savings for my two brothers and their wives. She also helped raise three grandchildren and three great-grandchildren. But now that she’s old, no one cares about her.

The attachment to resentment interfered with me when I studied the Fa and did the exercises. When I discussed my situation with other practitioners they said I hadn’t found the root cause of my resentment. I realized I’d only scratched the surface. I didn’t know where to start so I asked Master to enlighten me.

These thoughts came to my mind one night: “Why am I resentful?” “Because people do things that aren’t up to my standard. They’re awful!”

What is the standard then? I realized I was using my likes and dislikes as the standard to measure others. For example, my husband likes to watch television during mealtimes. He got upset when I criticized him, so I felt resentful. My daughter is in her 30s and unmarried. Her situation did not change no matter what I said, so I felt resentful. My younger brothers don’t take care of our parents, and I was resentful about that.

How self-righteous! Weren’t these manifestations of the Chinese Communist Party’s characteristics?

I finally found the root cause! The poisonous substance of the specter of Communism was the root of my resentment. A quote in the first chapter of The Ultimate Goal of Communism states, “The essence of communism is that it is a specter. It is composed of hatred and various degenerated substances from the lowest planes of the universe.”

In fact, Party culture is not only the root of resentment, but also the root of jealousy, combativeness, and the mentality of showing-off. Practitioners should look inward and eliminate these attachments so we can assimilate to the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance and live up to Master’s compassionate salvation.

Please kindly point out anything that is not in line with the Fa.