(Minghui.org) Since late 2017, I have been memorizing Zhuan Falun and have made it a consistent part of my daily life. Each day, I focus on calming my thoughts and deeply engaging with Falun Dafa’s teachings during Fa study.
When I first started memorizing the Fa, distractions were overwhelming. My mind felt foggy and groggy, as if I were about to fall asleep. To combat this, I stood up and walked while memorizing. Eventually, the drowsiness subsided somewhat, but my pace remained slow. No matter how many times I read the Fa, I couldn’t memorize a single paragraph and kept making mistakes.
So I switched to memorizing one sentence at a time. After memorizing three lines without mistakes, I’d move on to the next section. Though slow, this method kept my mind focused. If I wasn’t attentive, I’d either forget or make errors. I felt this approach allowed the teachings to sink in more deeply than just reading.
By the second time I memorized Zhuan Falun, I was memorizing three lines at a time. Once I could recite a paragraph flawlessly, I’d move on to the next one.
Since early 2023, I have joined an online group dedicated to memorizing the Fa. During the memorization process, I sometimes grasped profound meanings that had previously eluded me while simply reading. Through this practice, I have come to appreciate how the Fa directly touches my heart—a truly precious quality.
In the past, cultivators endured immense hardship and spent years practicing, yet gained only a little gong (cultivation energy). However, in our Dafa cultivation, as long as we identify and eliminate attachments, our xinxing improves and our gong increases, enabling our cultivation to progress remarkably quickly.
At the same time, I realized that my previous notions were mistaken. When measured by ordinary human standards, I always craved a comfortable life, and when troubles, suffering, or conflicts arose, I unconsciously resisted and rejected them in my heart. But if I use Dafa as a measure, isn’t this a golden opportunity to expose human attachments, cultivate away human desires, and elevate my realm? I should cherish difficulties, be grateful, and rejoice instead!
I often listen to fellow practitioners’ discussions on Minghui Radio about “persisting in memorizing the Fa.” This has deepened my understanding of the significance of memorizing the Fa and has constantly encouraged me to persevere.
Regarding my fundamental attachment, I had already sought answers years ago after Master published the article “Towards Consummation.” At that time, I believed that my core attachment was the desire for consummation, hoping to return to the heavenly realms through cultivation.
I obtained the Fa in 1995 while pursuing graduate studies at university. At the time, I felt profoundly lost about the meaning of life, unsure of why people exist, and lacked any clear purpose. Due to poor health—I had tuberculosis—I joined an extracurricular class at school to practice qigong and tai chi for healing and fitness.
One day on campus, I encountered a wandering monk who addressed our group. He told us, “A Buddha is one who has attained enlightenment.” That moment ignited a deep yearning within me to become enlightened. When I returned to my specialized classes, the professor’s lectures felt utterly meaningless—this knowledge could never lead to true awakening. About a month later, I came across a flyer introducing Falun Dafa. I promptly went to the practice site and soon obtained the Fa.
Last year, while memorizing the section “Qigong Is Cultivation Practice” from the first lecture of Zhuan Falun, I gained a deeper understanding of my fundamental attachments. It was as if I suddenly recalled my initial thoughts upon obtaining the Fa—I wanted to cultivate to become a Buddha. Yet I didn’t truly grasp the solemn and sacred nature of Buddhahood; instead, I viewed it through ordinary human notions. It was like how people regard PhDs and postdocs—as if they held positions of greater ability and higher titles.
Thus, I too sought to become a Buddha through cultivation, much like how one strives for a degree among people. Although I practiced the exercises and studied the Fa daily, I approached Dafa with the attitude of an intellectual, treating it as a theoretical study.
When conflicts arose during actual cultivation that required me to elevate my xinxing, I often still responded with human notions, and some hurdles proved insurmountable. When interacting with ordinary people around me, I would measure them against the standards of the Fa, consider their actions inadequate, and develop a sense of superiority. I failed to look inward or truly cultivate my xinxing.
After the persecution began on July 20, 1999, through multiple cycles of being persecuted, stumbling, taking detours, and then getting back up, I gradually learned to look inward and cultivate myself solidly by studying the Fa and reading fellow practitioners’ sharing articles on Minghui. However, my understanding of fundamental attachments remained superficial.
This time, I suddenly recalled my mindset when I first obtained the Fa, and realized it was the Fa that enlightened me during the process of memorizing the Fa. I recognized my strong attachment to personal gain. The desire to live comfortably had formed since childhood; it was my fundamental attachment to human life. These attachments manifested as hopes for a happy family, a good job, a decent income, a respectable position, and being held in high regard. They also appeared in my love of shopping and the joy of finding discounted items. I now understand that these are also the root of my desire for comfort.
Over the past few years of my cultivation, I have not only memorized the Fa, but have also occasionally hand copied it. I began by copying scriptures, and recently I copied one or several passages daily. Through this process, I have uncovered some of my own unrecognized attachments—such as looking down on others, seeking comfort, harboring jealousy, and holding resentment. During meals and while doing household chores, I regularly listen to Minghui Radio. Whenever possible, I visit the Minghui website to read fellow practitioners’ sharing articles.
Persistently memorizing and copying the Fa, as well as listening to Minghui Radio, have greatly benefited me. Dafa has helped me purge various negative thoughts and karma, making my mind clear and my heart more tranquil. Fellow practitioners’ sharing articles remind me to always view issues from a cultivator’s perspective and to look inward for reasons when conflicts arise.
Last year, an important project took place, but the coordinator didn’t allow me to participate. Though I didn’t say anything outwardly, I struggled internally with strong feelings of competitiveness, jealousy, and resentment, which surfaced often. Each time these attachments arose, I would recognize them and then send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate them.
Later, I heard that the project wasn’t progressing smoothly, and I felt a faint sense of gloating. One day, during meditation, my true self suddenly awakened. I questioned myself: How could I feel happy about such an important project failing? Even though the coordinator excluded me, if I had been involved and the project didn’t achieve its intended goal of saving people, wouldn’t that mean I also failed to fulfill my vow? How could I stand idly by? So I began reflecting on my own shortcomings and considered what I could do for the project.
When I realized that this arrangement involved elements of the old forces, exploiting our uncultivated attachments to create barriers between fellow practitioners and to fragment our collective strength, I began to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all arrangements the old forces had imposed upon me.
Later, through genuine cultivation practice, I came to recognize my strong attachment to self, always insisting on doing things my way and judging others and situations by my own standards. I believe this was the primary excuse the old forces used to interfere.
While diligently studying the Fa and working to eliminate my attachment to self, I also helped fellow practitioners to the best of my ability, regardless of whether it was within my responsibility. I proactively sought ways to use my strengths to contribute to the project. When I did so, I sensed Master’s encouragement. Master purified my body and mind, and my surroundings became harmonious. Fellow practitioners united in concerted effort and diligent cultivation, and the project progressed in a positive direction.
Now, during my daily study of the Fa, I try to calm myself down and learn the Fa in my heart. Gradually, I have come to understand more of what Master has said in the Fa. I am deeply grateful to Master for imparting Dafa to us! Thank you, Master, for your constant protection along the way! I am also grateful for the selfless sharing and communication among Dafa disciples around the world!
Thank you, Master!Thank you, fellow practitioners!