(Minghui.org) During the process of memorizing the Fa teachings, I felt that I underwent a tremendous transformation. The principles of Dafa were constantly revealed, my xinxing (heart and mind nature) continuously improved, and wisdom flowed forth—a state I had never experienced before. Especially when I memorized “Buddha Nature” (in Zhuan Falun Volume II), the feeling was truly different every day, I felt I was rising rapidly like a rocket. After I memorized it in 11 days, I truly felt I was reborn.—Excerpt from this article
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Greetings, Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I was born in a rural area. I am 65 years old and I’ve practiced Falun Dafa for more than 20 years. I had more than a dozen ailments, but after I began practicing I became illness free and I now feel light and healthy. I went from being domineering and selfish to being selfless and altruistic. Cultivating myself and eliminating my attachments has been a heart-wrenching process.
During every step of my cultivation Master has guided, blessed, and protected me. I am grateful to Master for never abandoning me and for always being by my side. Thank you, Master!
I’d like to tell you about my cultivation experiences from 2018 to the present to report to Master and share with fellow practitioners.
After I was illegally arrested and imprisoned for four years by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), I returned home in 2018 and found that my cultivation environment had changed drastically. My son and daughter-in-law, who were not practitioners, were opposed to my practicing Falun Dafa. When other practitioners came to visit me, they were unhappy. They watched me when I went out to run errands or when I went to a fellow practitioner’s house. I thought, I just got out of the CCP’s prison, but now it feels like I’m imprisoned by my family. I can’t let them control me. Practitioners are in charge of their surroundings; I must rectify this situation.
My younger brother invited me to stay at his house for a few days, but I returned home because it was almost Chinese New Year. As soon as she saw me my daughter-in-law’s face darkened. She said, “Your fellow practitioner came to see you, but left without closing the door. The boiler froze and water was everywhere! A new boiler will cost over 2,000 yuan!” I thought, I endured so much hardship in that prison, I barely escaped with my life. I don’t even hear a kind word in my home. I also discovered that my two bankbooks and gold jewelry were missing. My son admitted that he had withdrawn and spent the 20,000 yuan from my savings account, but my daughter-in-law quickly said she did not use a penny. One day, Master enlightened me, showing me that my daughter-in-law was wearing those bracelets and necklaces. I understood it and stopped thinking about them from then on.
When my husband was alive, we ran a small restaurant. When he passed away from leukemia in the winter of 2009 my son and daughter-in-law insisted on continuing the restaurant. I didn’t say anything at the time. We discussed this in a room full of relatives, including my in-laws. When I remained silent, my cousin and brother-in-law told my son and daughter-in-law, “Your father is gone, your mother has no income, and your brother isn’t married yet. If you want to run this restaurant, how about giving your mother 10,500 yuan a year? If you rent it out, the rent is 20,000 yuan per year.” They agreed, but more than ten years have passed, and they haven’t given me a single penny, nor have I asked them for it.
I thought to myself, the boiler freezing might not necessarily be related to a fellow practitioner; it could have happened because someone else didn’t close the door and it froze. You can’t even handle spending this little bit of money? If I were to calculate the total cost with you, it would cost me over 200,000 yuan. On the surface, I didn’t ask them for money, but in my mind, I hadn’t let go of my attachments. My selfishness and complaints were still there but I did not realize it.
Another time, my niece gave me a new pair of shoes. I planned to wear them when I went back to my hometown, so I put them on the shoe rack. When I wanted to wear them, they were gone. When I asked my daughter-in-law if she saw them, she said she gave them to her mother. I didn’t say anything, but I thought, you can be filial to your mother, but you shouldn’t take my shoes. I thought I was being quite magnanimous by not arguing with her. However, my resentment and jealousy rose. I later realized that I had missed another opportunity to improve my character.
Because I hadn’t let go of my various attachments and wasn’t truly looking inward, the old forces were using my family to continue to persecute me both mentally and financially.
My son gambled online using his phone and also borrowed money from loan sharks. We found out he owed over 300,000 yuan when the creditors came to our house demanding payment. Once the loan terms were due, the debt snowballed. Where were we going to get so much money?
I discussed it with my daughter-in-law, “Could you take money out of your account to pay off the debt? We’ll solve it together later.”
She wasn’t happy but she had over 700,000 yuan at the time. She said, “If you ask me to take the money out of my account, I’ll jump off a building and die.”
I had no other choice but to sell my old house. I also took out 20,000 yuan in cash to pay off the debt. I told myself that I probably owed them in my previous life. When I later reflected on it, I realized that it was actually a flaw in my cultivation that allowed the old forces to seize on it and persecute me financially.
Because I had to sell my house, I had to live with my son, daughter-in-law, and grandchildren, which has made my cultivation and doing the three things even more difficult. I was distressed. I realized that this was the root cause of my excessive attachment to self-interest—I mistook doing things as cultivation, and I did not walk the path arranged by Master. I felt that I disappointed Master.
I ended up helping my son and daughter-in-law at the restaurant. I did all sorts of dirty and tiring work including washing dishes and taking out the trash. But my daughter-in-law still made things difficult for me at every turn.
One day, my daughter-in-law ladled the stewed meat broth into a bowl and went out. When the guests came, I used the hot broth to cook for them. When she returned, she criticized me for not using the cold broth first. I said, “You didn’t tell me which bowl to use first; besides, we have to use both broths sooner or later.” I retorted indignantly, “I do so much work every day, and you’re still finding fault with me. Look at the neighbors; no one my age is as tired as me.”
She replied, “Don’t you practice Falun Dafa and say you want to be a good person? You have to do all the work.”
I always looked down on my daughter-in-law, and in return she looked down on me too. So she became even more aggressive, pointing at me and yelling, “Don’t you have 100,000 yuan? Go buy a house and live there!”
I replied, “I built this house; you’re the ones who should move out. Besides, I sold my old house to pay off debts. You run this restaurant but don’t pay me rent, and I’m both a waitress and a nanny. Not only do you not pay me, but you expect me to buy a house? How dare you say that?” My daughter-in-law probably realized she was wrong and fell silent.
I never expected her to kick me out. I was extremely upset; my heart was in turmoil. I couldn’t control my temper, and my combative mentality surfaced. I forgot I was a cultivator and I did not look inward. After calming down, I truly regretted failing to overcome this hurdle again, letting my demonic nature run rampant, and walking the path arranged by the old forces instead of the path arranged by Master.
Actually, my daughter-in-law has her merits. For example, when conflicts arose between us, she wouldn’t hold grudges and quickly moved on, as if nothing happened. I knew I didn’t study the Fa well, so I hadn’t truly cultivated myself. I was not humble and I didn’t allow others to criticize me. I measured problems with human notions. My capacity was too small, and my compassion was insufficient.
I decided to cultivate myself and work on my character, but the process of truly cultivating my mind was incredibly difficult. I reminded myself to change my mindset, let go of human desires, guard my character, and let my good side shine through.
Seeing many fellow practitioners sharing their experiences of memorizing the Fa on Minghui.org, I also started memorizing the Fa, but it wasn’t easy. I couldn’t memorize more than 20 pages of Zhuan Falun. Fellow practitioner Zhang suggested that I memorize “Buddha Nature” (in Zhuan Falun Volume II) and “Expounding on the Fa” (in Essentials for Further Advancement).
Because I worked all day, I always felt sleepy when I studied the Fa in the evening. I know this wasn’t right and I was very anxious. Gradually, I became negative and I felt helpless.
One day, Zhang came to visit me and asked if I still wanted to buy a computer. My previous computer and printer had been damaged by the CCP officials in 2012. So I said, “I want to buy one, please help me.” A month later, I was able to get online again while bypassing the internet blockade. The first thing I saw when I opened the web page was a picture of our compassionate Master. Tears of gratitude streamed down my face. I pressed my palms together and thanked Master for saving my life.
I started memorizing the Fa again on March 8, 2019. I asked Master to help me so that I could memorize Zhuan Falun. No matter how difficult it is, I will memorize it.
I diligently memorized the teachings every day without fail, even if it was only one or two sentences. I would sometimes memorize until midnight without mastering a single passage, but I didn’t care about quantity; I just wanted to memorize it word for word. It took me a year and a half to finish the first round of memorization, and I’ve now memorized Zhuan Falun five times. I’ve also memorized “Buddha Nature” and “Expounding on the Fa.”
During the process of memorizing the teachings, I felt that I had undergone a tremendous transformation. The principles of Dafa were constantly revealed, my xinxing (heart and mind nature) continuously improved, and wisdom flowed forth continuously—a state I had never experienced before. Especially when I memorized “Buddha Nature” (in Zhuan Falun Volume II), the feeling was truly different every day, and I felt I was rising rapidly like a rocket. After I memorized it in eleven days, I truly felt I was reborn. I also felt negative things leaving my body; my mind became clear, and my body felt light. I knew Master was helping me remove those negative notions, human attachments, and karma-filled thoughts. I thought to myself, “It’s so good to have Master guiding me. Thank you, Master!”
By memorizing the Fa, I knew I should look inward and cultivate myself. I had always used the Fa to judge others in the past, but I never examined myself. I always treated others with human notions, and I exploded at the slightest criticism. I lacked the patience to listen to others, and when their actions didn’t align with my thoughts and beliefs, I would publicly call them out, disregarding their feelings. Now, these negative tendencies are gradually weakening, and have almost disappeared. When attachments arise, I can now immediately grasp them, not be swayed by them, and eliminate them instantly. I can also calm myself when sending forth righteous thoughts and practicing meditation.
My impatient and restless heart gradually became calm and my mindset became more stable and peaceful as I immersed myself in the Fa. Reciting the Fa changed my perspective and allowed me to personally experience the power of Dafa. I never knew that reciting the Fa was so wonderful. This is all because of Master’s greatness and the greatness of the Fa.
My family and friends also noticed my physical and mental changes, and my family also changed, especially my daughter-in-law. I once overheard her praising me to her friend, “My mother-in-law is healthy and hardworking and has a good temper. She never argues about food or clothing, nor does she fight over material things. She even uses her own money to buy me birthday gifts and fruit, and to buy food and clothes for her grandson, but she never buys clothes for herself. She wears second-hand clothing. Falun Dafa has changed her. I think Falun Dafa is really good. She’s not only good to us, but also very kind to my relatives and friends. She’s not selfish and always thinks of others.”
She also said, “If everyone practiced Falun Dafa, there would be no more bad people. Wouldn’t China then be a better place?”
Hearing my daughter-in-law say this, I suddenly realized my mistakes from the past. She was actually helping me improve my character and cultivate myself. How could I have resented her? I should thank her. I understood that the conflicts and trials arranged by Master are opportunities for us to cultivate ourselves! By properly adjusting our relationships with others, guarding our character, and expanding our capacity, we can truly improve ourselves, break free from human constraints, and move towards the divine.
What makes me most gratified is that my son and daughter-in-law no longer object to me telling our customers the truth about Falun Dafa and the persecution. This way, I can help Master save many people while I work. When I’m with my family, I also tell them how wonderful Falun Dafa is. For example, when we’re making dumplings together, I would turn on the truth-clarification broadcast so they can listen to it. The broadcast’s content is very comprehensive. After listening to the broadcast, my son sometimes said, “This society is too dark, Mom. Falun Dafa is so good, you should practice it diligently!” Now, our family is harmonious, and everyone is healthy.
I’ve explained the truth about Falun Dafa to all my daughter-in-law’s relatives, friends, and classmates—anyone I could reach—and I helped them withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. Some of them received different kinds of blessings. Sometimes when I’m explaining the truth to customers in the restaurant, my daughter-in-law helps me. She says, “Renouncing one’s memberships [in the CCP] is good and you’ll be safe!” The customers usually quickly agree to withdraw. When it’s time to distribute truth-clarification calendars, she even says, “Mom, give me some calendars; I’ll give them to my friends.” What a wonderful child! This is her good deed after understanding the truth, and it’s also the power of Falun Dafa.
When I first returned from the prison, the CCP officials kept harassing me, and pressured me to sign a document to renounce Falun Dafa. I refused, and they came to my house every few days to cause trouble. I told them the truth about Falun Dafa and its miraculous effects on healing and health. When a young police officer was taking my photo, I stopped him and said, “You’re violating my portrait rights; I’m going to file a complaint against you.”
My daughter-in-law saw they were refusing to leave, and she tried to sign for me. I said, “Even Mom won’t sign, so you definitely can’t. I practice Falun Dafa to be a good person according to Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. Master teaches us to always think of others. How can I sign something that would harm others and myself? Whoever signs is participating in the persecution.” Seeing that I wouldn’t sign, the officials left.
One morning in March 2022, judicial personnel and police officers from the local police station came to inform me that officials from the city and county Political Legal Affairs Committee (PLAC), as well as the 610 Office, were coming to see me that day. They asked if I wanted to talk with them at the police station or at home. I said, “I haven’t done anything wrong, I haven’t broken the laws, and I’m not going anywhere. Can’t you do something productive? Stop harassing me and interfering with my family’s life.”
One official replied, “We’ll be at your house at 1:30 p.m.”
After they left, I began looking inward. Why did they keep harassing me? Was it because of shortcomings in my cultivation? I discovered that I had strong competitiveness, as well as resentment, jealousy, a desire for comfort, a desire to show off, and a desire to validate myself. I also lacked compassion for those who came to harass me. I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate these negative human notions. I thought that these human notions were imposed on me by the old forces. I don’t want them. I will only walk the path arranged by Master.
After sending forth righteous thoughts, I went to an elderly fellow practitioner's home to study the Fa. After I told her what happened, she said, “Things aren’t that simple. They came prepared. You should quickly go to your father’s house to hide.”
I didn’t want to leave my home, so I replied, “I won’t go to my father’s house. Going to anyone’s place would only cause trouble for that person. My father is over 80 years old; I can’t disturb him. I won’t go anywhere. If they come, I’ll clarify the truth; otherwise, they shouldn’t come at all.”
That day, we studied the sixth lecture of Zhuan Falun. My Fa-study state was particularly good; the more I studied, the stronger my righteous thoughts became. A thought told me that officials wouldn’t come. After I returned home, I sent forth righteous thoughts while doing chores. I waited all afternoon, but they didn’t come. The false appearance of persecution was disintegrated with Master’s blessing.
Several newly appointed officials from the judiciary office and police station came to ask me to sign something one day in June 2023. I said that signing would be bad for them, so I wouldn’t sign. They said that if I didn’t sign, I would lose my pension. I thought, “What you say doesn’t count, what Master says counts.”
They really stopped paying my pension. I went to the local Social Security office to ask about it, and then went to the county Social Security Bureau. They said because I had been sentenced to prison, I wasn’t entitled to this benefit. I replied, “We practitioners strive to be good people according to Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. Why can’t we claim this benefit? Besides, the money wasn’t given to me by you; it’s what I earned. You’re just holding it temporarily.”
I was filled with resentment and competitiveness at the time, so the Social Security staff were rude. After I went home, I looked inward and realized that my tone was unkind and I lacked compassion. I strengthened my righteous thoughts to clear away my attachments, bad notions, and thought karma, and I also frequently sent righteous thoughts to the relevant Social Security personnel to prevent them from participating in the persecution.
I gradually let go of the idea of receiving the pension. A fellow practitioner said, “Then you’re not going to take it?” I said, “I don’t need it for now. Let them keep it for me. They’ll give it to me eventually.” I strengthened my Fa study, memorizing of the Fa, and sending righteous thoughts. I continued to do the three things that a Dafa practitioner should do. I sent righteous thoughts after 11 or 12 o’clock at night before I went to sleep, and I got up to do the exercises at 3 or 4 in the morning.
There’s another miraculous thing that happened. One day, when it was time to do the exercises I turned off the alarm because I was lazy and had a desire for comfort, thinking, “I can still make it in five more minutes.” Just as I closed my eyes, a hand grabbed my pajamas and pulled me up. I knew it was Master calling me to get up and practice. I immediately got up, thinking, “Thank you, Master! I was wrong. I won't be complacent any longer. I won’t sleep in.”
Time flies by in the midst of our busy days; three years have passed in the blink of an eye. One day in November 2025, while I was reciting Zhuan Falun, I heard, “It’s time to contact Social Security.” I was startled. Oh, was Master guiding me to claim my pension? I thought, yes, it had been too long. This time, my mindset was completely different from before. I only thought about how to use the wisdom Master gave me to clarify the truth and save these people. I left everything to Master.
On the morning I decided to go to the Social Security Bureau, after I finished doing the exercises and drawing back the curtains, I saw that it was snowing heavily outside. We live on mountain roads, and I wasn’t sure if they were passable by car. But I went out anyway. When I arrived at the station, I saw that there were indeed buses, and one that went to the county. While on the bus, besides reciting the Fa, I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all vicious beings and factors behind the Social Security personnel, encouraging them to have compassionate thoughts. Two hours later, I arrived at the station.
I know a fellow practitioner from the county, and I thought of asking her to go to the Social Security office with me. But then I thought they were all busy validating Dafa, so I decided not to bother them. With the guidance of the Fa, what was there to fear? With righteous thoughts and righteous actions, I just needed to do what I should do. When I arrived at the Social Security Bureau, the staff members asked me for my verdict and release certificate. I said, “The verdict was sent to you three years ago. I’ve been released, and the certificate is useless; my child tore it up.”
They checked my information on the computer. One Social Security officer said, “The verdict seems to be here.” Another officer went to look in the pile of documents. She rummaged through it a couple of times and said, “It’s really here.” When they asked why I had been imprisoned, I started telling them the facts of Dafa. I noticed that some of them weren’t even as old as my son. So I said, “Children, if I hadn’t practiced Falun Dafa, I would have died long ago. The doctor said my whole body was riddled with illnesses. I practiced for less than a month and I was fine. Isn’t that wonderful?”
They all listened quietly, and at that moment I felt that Master was right beside me. I also told them that the so-called Tiananmen Self-Immolation incident was a hoax, and the truth about the persecution including forced organ harvesting from Falun Dafa practitioners. I told them, “Never believe what’s broadcast on TV. Don’t let evil and lies cloud your kind eyes.” I said, “You are all young, with elderly parents and young children to support. You have to be responsible for your families.”
After we continued talking for a while, a Social Security officer got up from the computer desk and said, “Auntie, don’t worry, I’ll get it done for you as soon as possible. You don’t need to come back. We’ll contact your local Social Security office directly and get it done for you.”
I replied, “Thank you for being such kind people. I wish you and your families peace and happiness.”
After I returned home, the local Social Security personnel called and asked me to bring copies of my household registration book and ID card. I went to tell them the truth again. The local Social Security office told me that the money would be deposited into my account in March 2026. When I checked at the end of that month, the money for the past three years had been returned. I am grateful to Master for his encouragement, blessings, and protection, which enabled me to use righteous thoughts to clarify the truth and get my pension back.
As the saying goes, “One’s environment shapes one’s character.” We are the hope for people, and the people in our area depend on local practitioners to awaken them. Distributing materials, clarifying the truth, and helping Master save people is our historic mission.
Several years ago, two practitioners and I went to a village dozens of miles away in the evening to distribute truth-clarification materials. When we arrived, each of us went down a street and distributed materials to every household.
As I was walking and distributing materials, I heard an argument on the street ahead. It was one of the practitioners and a man. The man said, “Let’s go to the police station.” I thought to myself, “A fellow practitioner is in trouble. What should I do?” A fellow practitioner’s affairs are my affairs. Since I heard it, there must be something I need to do. I rushed over, sending righteous thoughts as I went, thinking to myself that I cannot let people commit crimes against Dafa.
When getting closer, I saw two men, one tall and one short. The taller one was clutching the practitioner’s bag of materials and wouldn’t let her go. The shorter one saw me coming and said, “Here comes another Falun Dafa practitioner.”
I went up to him and greeted him, “Hello, brother.” I casually took out a large booklet and said, “Look how good this book is—Blessings from the Divine. Understanding the truth is your hope. Treating Dafa kindly can bring you happiness and peace. Please don’t do bad things since it’s not good for you.”
He suddenly said, “If you’re so capable, go talk to them.” I looked back and saw it was a small shop. I thought, “Small shops are just crowded; you’re testing my courage.” I was doing the most righteous thing in the universe. With Master’s protection, what was there to be afraid of? So I went.
When I arrived at the small shop, the air inside was thick with smoke. There were about twenty or thirty people playing mahjong, cards, or just sitting around. I said, “Good evening, everyone. I am a Falun Dafa practitioner, and I’ve come to bring you blessings. It’s our destiny to be here. These materials are for saving people. We’ve brought them to you in this cold weather. We don’t want anything in return; we just hope that when calamities come, you will be safe and healthy. Always remember ‘Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,’ and your lives will be saved when danger comes.”
A man at one of the tables shouted, “Give each of us one.” I went from table to table handing them out, and even the people sitting idly nearby reached their hands out for a copy. The two who were going to report me also took copies, and immediately opened them to look and read. The store owner asked for a copy. He also brought me a stool, bread, and soda so I could sit down and rest and have something to eat.
The store owner then said, “It’s so late. Please stay here and leave tomorrow.” I thanked him for his kindness and said it wasn’t necessary, I could go home. What seemed like an impending persecution turned into a good thing under Master's protection.
I have so much more to say, but due to space limitations I won’t write everything down. Since I started consistently memorizing the Fa and truly cultivating myself according to the Fa, I feel that my life has become much smoother. I currently spend my free time studying the Fa, sending forth righteous thoughts, producing materials to clarify the truth and save people, and I can also do some housework.
I now understand even more the importance of diligent cultivation, and I often look inward to examine myself, and immediately correct any deviations from the Fa. Every conflict and setback is an opportunity arranged by Master for us to improve.
I am grateful for Master’s compassionate salvation, blessings, and protection. I will continue to work hard to do the three things well and walk the path of cultivation well.
Thank you, Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners!
(Selected submission for the 23rd China Fa Conference on Minghui.org)