Eliminating Hatred With Strong Righteous Thoughts

(Minghui.org) I was born into a landlord-class family. I had been discriminated against since elementary school by both teachers and classmates. They called me a “landlord’s brat.” I asked my mother if people in our family exploited others. Mother told me, “We have more money, more land, and more things than other people. That is why we are classified as landlords.”

According to my mother, when I had just started speaking, I once talked to myself, saying, “Why do we always say ‘long live chairman Mao’? Why don’t we say ‘long live grandpa’?” A neighbor heard me and reported it to our unit communist Party secretary. Since then, my grandfather became a target at the political rallies. He had to wear a tall paper hat written with insulting slogans, and was tied with ropes and paraded through the streets. Onlookers burned my grandfather’s hands with cigarette butts. He died a victim of the Cultural Revolution.

My parents used to be office workers. They were sent to be re-educated in the countryside because my grandfather was classified as a landlord. As a young child, I was filled with hatred.

Fa-Rectification

I opened a clothing store after I married. Business was good and we had many returning customers. I became a Falun Dafa practitioner in the fall of 1997. On July 20, 1999, former Chinese Communist Party leader Jiang Zemin launched the brutal persecution of Falun Dafa. They openly destroyed our cultivation environment and made massive unlawful arrests of Falun Dafa practitioners.

My first thought was, “I must show them that Dafa is good.” So I closed the store and went to Beijing with another practitioner to appeal for Dafa. Neither of us brought identification cards, so we could not book a hotel room in Beijing. Unable to get in touch with any practitioners we knew, we went home after spending two nights on the street.

We went to Beijing for a second time when we heard that the secretary of the United Nations was coming to visit the consulate in Beijing. We wanted to let him know the truth behind the persecution. But unfortunately we couldn’t get anywhere near the consulate due to a heavy police presence, and were detained for 20 days, and given one year in a forced labor camp.

Another time, I went to distribute Dafa informational pamphlets in the countryside with other practitioners, and a villager reported us to the police. I was again given one year in a forced labor camp.

I refused to comply with the persecution. Master told us that the persecution was wrong. I believe in Master and Dafa. Thus, I did not spend time in labor camps even though I was twice given one-year terms. Master protected me from harm.

Telling Others About Falun Dafa During Difficult Times

My local police station and government searched for ways to put me in prison. They hired people to follow me. If it looked like I was heading for Beijing, they would block me from going. When Master’s article “Fa Teaching Given at the Great Lakes Fa Conference in North America” was published, I printed a copy to bring to a practitioner in the detention center.

As I was getting out of the taxi, a police car drove up. One of the officers said, “Don’t you know the government is holding important meetings?”

“I didn’t know,” I replied, “I am not invited anyway.”

The officer got angry, and told me to go home. I refused, as I hadn’t yet seen the person I came to see. The police urged me to hurry up.

The practitioner at the detention center could not take the article because the guards were watching.

As I was leaving the detention center, a police officer dragged me into their car. The trip back home was over 40 kilometers (25 miles) so I had plenty of time to tell them about the goodness of Dafa, and that persecuting cultivators is a heinous crime. “Once the CCP [Chinese Communist Party] leadership collapses, those who committed the crime will pay the price. Those who treat cultivators kindly will have a bright future.” In the end, they let me go home instead of taking me to the police station.

Master’s words are so true:

“Disciples’ righteous thoughts are strongMaster has the power to turn the tide”(“Master-Disciple Grace,” Hong Yin II)

Facing Persecution With Righteous Thoughts

I sold my house in the countryside and opened a store in the city. The business kept me busy, and I began studying the Fa less and less. My cultivation came to a stop and I no longer cared to search within. I often argued with my husband, could not let go of self interest, and behaved in a controlling manner. I hated my husband for losing all the money he borrowed.

We fought so much that my husband disappeared from my life for three years. But I still had to face the lenders he borrowed money from. Unable to find his whereabouts, I had the thought that this was something I should cultivate away. Why would they ask for payment if I did not owe them anything? What is owed must be repaid. I needed to eliminate my attachment to money and pay off my husband’s debt.

Three years after my husband left home, I received a phone call from a woman. She claimed she had been living with my husband for more than a year. I said, “I wish you two the best. I have a better life without him.”

I hated my husband even more, thinking, “You lost our money and borrowed more. You left without paying anything back, and now you have another woman.” I was planning on divorcing him as soon he returned home.

A few days later, as if something pushed me, I fainted, and my head hit the concrete floor. When I regained consciousness, I felt a large bump on my head. I didn’t pay it any attention, and didn’t realize it was time for me to search within. I still focused on making money.

When my menstrual cycle came, it lasted for more than two weeks. My face was pale and my body was weak. It was then that I began to search within myself and send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all the evil factors that were harming my body. I realized that with Master and the Fa as my guardian, I should not harbor resentful thoughts. Hatred is not part of me, it ought to be destroyed. All of my attachments and sentimentality must be eliminated. I will be aligned with the Fa and let Master take charge. I continued sending righteous thoughts into the night. The next morning, my spirit returned, and the bleeding stopped. Master helped me to get well! I am grateful to compassionate Master for saving me!

Eliminating Hatred and Recognizing My Mistake

I hated my younger self. My grandfather went though tremendous suffering because of the one comment I made. I hated my husband for not listening to me and losing our money. I could apologize to anyone, but not my husband.

This hate was deeply rooted. I was unable to attain the Fa when I studied the Fa every day. I looked outward, and did not learn to search within. After extensive Fa study, reading sharing articles on the Minghui website, and talking with other practitioners, I gradually learned how to look inward and decided I should no longer hate my husband. Who knows how many bad deeds I had done that harmed him in our past lives. He was helping me to let go of my attachments to self interest, fame, and sentimentality! During the three years that he was absent, wasn’t it a good time to let go of desire and sentiment? How could I hate him for that?

I said to him, “I am sorry. I was wrong. You have supported my cultivation all these years, you never stopped me from going to Beijing [to appeal for Dafa], you told me not to be afraid and that you would go after people who hit me, you transported Dafa booklets to safe areas, you were not against me hosting a Fa study group at home, you strengthened my righteous thoughts, and I am using our home as a base to do Fa rectification work. I thank you for supporting Dafa and my cultivation.”

The hatred in my heart disappeared. I stopped talking about the money he lost. We stopped arguing. We can work hard to make more money. My husband changed with me, and good things started to happen. We made more money than he previously lost. Our family is now harmonious, and I am able to stay focused on my cultivation and do the three things practitioners should do. I will treat cultivation seriously, eliminate attachments, and go back home with Master.