(Clearwisdom.net) A key which had been missing for nearly four months reappeared unexpectedly on my desk in my home. I became aware immediately that Master had sent the key back to me to encourage me. I called my family member to come quickly to see the reappearance of the lost key in order to validate the miraculousness of Dafa. At same time, I felt deeply grateful to Master's merciful hint.
One evening during the later part of July, I went to a supermarket with my husband to buy fish. After I returned home, I realized that I had lost my key. I was pretty sure that I had lost the key at the supermarket and I looked within immediately for the reason. I came to think that it was because of my inflated zealotry and the attachment to personal interests. These attachments were inflated when I bought the fish at a lower price after I had bargained with the vendor. I started sending righteous thoughts right away to discard my attachments. Afterward, we still could not find the key. Several days later, we had to get two new keys. I knew Master was giving me a hint and indicated for me to look inward. However, I could not find the reason and gradually I forgot about it.
When I read Hong Yin III recently, I was awakened. Scenes of past incidents, especially those unresolved conflicts which interfered with the entire group for a long time, all emerged in my mind. I suddenly came to understand that I was indeed looking within, but with conditions. Upon encountering situations, I always looked inside for the reason, but insisted that I was right. My looking within was only on the surface and superficial, so I was not able to find my root attachments. I tried to persuade the other party by quoting passages from the Fa, but the results were often contrary to what I had expected. Not only were the conflicts not resolved, but the attachments were inflated. This is probably why I continued to have conflicts with fellow practitioners.
I also came to understand that when in such a situation, the more I insisted on my own opinions, the stronger my attachment became. The more I wanted to prove that I was right, the more the other party would resist. Therefore, one must let go of self and unconditionally look inside. Only in this way, can one achieve a broad perspective to find the true source of the problems one encounters.
In the course of cultivation, right or wrong in one's own opinion is only based on the judgment he made at his level. Master uses these conflicts to expose our attachments in order for us to improve. The attachments of both parties result in this conflict. How can I cling to my own attachments while at the same time trying to find the other one's attachments? In other words, was I judging others based on my own attachments? How can others accept this judgment? In this way, not only have I not been able to help others, but also strengthened my attachments. How can I raise my xinxing this way?
Cultivation is to cultivate one's heart and looking within is a cultivator's magic tool. How to look within? How to cultivate? My deepest understanding from the Fa is to let go of the attachment to looking outwards, let go of self and look within unconditionally. Only in this way can one assimilate to the Fa.
After I came to a deeper understanding of looking within, my lost key returned. I also felt that I was no longer as impulsive as before and I did not want to insist on my own opinion anymore. My mind is calmer and I started putting myself in others' shoes. All of a sudden my mind was relaxed. When I looked back again on the conflicts I had with fellow practitioners, the conflicts became trivial and the only thing I felt was my apologies to fellow practitioners.
Through this experience, once again, I clearly felt that Master is with us all the time. He is looking after us everywhere and giving us hints to guide us with compassion. He is bearing for us what we cannot imagine and he has exhausted everything for our cultivation. What reason do we still have not to strive forward in our cultivation?
Category: Improving Oneself
