(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa in April 1997. Prior to this I had several illnesses such as heart and joint disease. My life was a “living hell.” My husband had to take care of our young child and all family needs because of my illness.
Shortly after I started practicing Falun Dafa, all my illnesses disappeared! I strove to conduct myself according to the principles of “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance” and changed into a different person. My temperament improved and I became able to do housework. I have not taken a single pill during my 18 years of cultivation practice, and my husband tells just about everybody that Dafa saved my life.
I suddenly felt an intense headache and dizziness on March 13, 2015.When I began to experience vomiting and abdominal cramping, I realized it was the old forces attempting to interfere with my cultivation practice. I knew that I must deny this interference, so I started sending forth righteous thoughts immediately. When my husband saw my situation, he started reading Master's lectures to me, knowing that only Master could save me. My younger brother, and fellow practitioner, joined my husband by sending forth righteous thoughts and playing Master's lecture recordings for me.
An hour later, my symptoms did not improve, and I felt my body getting cold. I felt as if my entire body was frozen, except a little bit of warmth was left around my heart. I even felt as if my breath was freezing. I kept sending forth righteous thoughts and told myself the most basic truths I know: “I will survive no matter what. I will not give in to the evil. I will never give up! Master is watching me right now, so I must complete my cultivation practice and follow Master home.”
My family members brought me hot water bags and covered me with thick comforters, but my body got colder and colder.
My family cried as they saw the deadly hue of my face and the wrinkles on my forehead, which indicated death in traditional beliefs. It occurred to my husband that in a truth-clarification pamphlet, it was said that repeating “Falun Dafa is Good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is Good!”out loud could save lives. In this way, a non-practitioner friend joined my husband in repeating, “Falun Dafa is Good! Dafa Master please save her!” My younger brother also never stopped sending forth righteous thoughts, and he asked for Master's assistance.
Suddenly, I felt like all the pain had gone, except that my head felt swollen. Although I could not move my body, it actually felt delightfully light. I realized my main consciousness was leaving my body, so I firmly held the thought, ordering it to stay: “My main consciousness cannot leave my body. I cannot die. I cannot tarnish Dafa’s image. I will complete my cultivation practice and follow Master home.”
At this thought, my mind was extremely calm and pure. “I am a disciple of Master Li Hongzhi (the founder of Falun Dafa),” I thought. “I will not follow or acknowledge any other arrangements than what Master Li has arranged for me. No matter to whom I may have signed agreements with, or whatever promises I have made before, I hereby declare them invalid. I am a Falun Dafa practitioner, and Master has arranged my path.”
Master's Fa came to my mind and I could not stop weeping:
“In life, nothing sought,In death, regretting naught;Washing away all wrong thought,Buddhahood, with lessadversity, is wrought.” (Nothing Kept from Hong Yin)
My husband repeatedly tested my breathing by putting his hand under my nose. My non-practitioner friend suggested we go to the hospital, but I told him that I would be alright. My husband asked my younger brother if they should call other practitioners or an ambulance, and he deferred the question to me.
“I'll be OK,” I said. “I will make it. Just keep sending righteous thoughts for me.”
My choice presented a dilemma for my non-practitioner husband. On the one hand, he was afraid I would die on the way to the hospital; on the other hand, he was afraid our child and relatives would blame him for not taking me to the hospital or getting any treatment. However, they were all moved when they saw my unwavering eyes and the integrity and dignity of a Dafa disciple.
“Falun Dafa is Good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!” was echoed in the room, and we were all surrounded by the righteous energy. My younger brother and I kept sending forth righteous thoughts, and we believed we could disintegrate all the evil that was trying to persecute me. I said in my mind, “I am Master Li's disciple. Who dares touch me?”
I saw the image of a woman in her 40s on the glass door about mid morning. She was staring at me with resentment. I stared right back at her. She did not say anything and disappeared in a moment. At this time, a non-practitioner friend shouted, “She's back!”
Indeed, my limbs were starting to warm up and I quickly recovered. I had passed the cultivation test of life and death! My non-practitioner friends said, “It is unbelievable. I would never believe it if I didn't witness the whole thing myself—so magical!”
My fellow practitioners came to see me one after another throughout the afternoon and evening, and they sent forth righteous thoughts for me. My family was touched.
There's Always a Reason
I looked inside and realized this tribulation did not happen without reason. I have discovered a lot of attachments such as the competitive mentality, the mentality of showing off, fear, attachments to fame and self-interest, zealotry, and learning from individuals instead of the Fa. In particular, my mother believes in Buddhism and knows Dafa is good, but she does not want to learn Dafa. I have harbored resentment about this for a long time.
However, I am grateful for my family and friends' support of my cultivation practice. I also thank my fellow practitioners for their help. From now on, I will truly cultivate myself, measure every thought of mine with the Fa, and cultivate my speech, my actions, and my thoughts. I will do the three things well, and not let Master down.
Thank you Master for your merciful salvation! Human language is inadequate for me to express my gratitude!
In sharing this experience of passing the test of life and death, I hope it can be of some help to those fellow practitioners who are in the same situation. Please kindly point out anything improper.
Category: Improving Oneself
