(Minghui.org) When I saw the call for paper submissions for the 2024 World Falun Dafa Day, I eagerly began to write. However, after I wrote a paragraph, my thoughts were blocked and the words sounded awkward, so I put it aside for the time being.
I began writing again a few days later, but after two hours, I had only written half a page, and hadn’t yet gotten to the main point. A practitioner asked me if I had finished writing the article. I replied, “Hey, don’t mention it. By writing the paper, I realized that those things that I thought I did well at were all wrong. I thought it was others who made this and that mistake, but while I was writing about it, I realized that I was the one who was wrong. I have been looking at the issue of cultivation from a human perspective. Whatever I wrote exposed my shortcomings and attachments.”
“Isn’t that in itself your reward for writing the article?”
Encouraged by the practitioner, I kept writing and made many revisions to the previous version. When I finished writing the title, I couldn’t write the last subtitle in the same style as the previous ones. I felt rather proud of the earlier subtitles and was reluctant to change them. After thinking about it over and over again, I realized that I was validating myself with the previous subtitles. The purpose of submitting the article was to validate the wonder of Dafa, but if I was using Dafa to validate myself, that would be a big omission!
Some time ago, I encountered a bottleneck in my cultivation. I looked within but found nothing specific. Whatever I found was all on the surface. The deeper attachments seemed to be protected by a hard shell. I wanted to make a breakthrough by extending my Fa study time, but I often felt sleepy while studying and couldn’t stay focused for very long. I knew that my state was not right, and I felt very uneasy about it. By writing the article, I had a better understanding of my attachment to “self,” which protects many human hearts and attachments.
I’m grateful for this opportunity to discover my attachment. I hope to cultivate more diligently, do the three things well, fulfill my historic vow, and follow Master to my heavenly abode.
This is my understanding at my level; please point out anything not in line with the Fa.
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