[Celebrating World Falun Dafa Day] Letting Go of the Deep Grudge Against My Mother

(Minghui.org) I was fortunate to discover Falun Dafa in 2002 when I was studying in Europe. Since then, I have embarked on a spiritual journey that helped me to resolve the deeply rooted grudge against my mother. Practicing Dafa has improved my health, led to a harmonious family life, and allowed me to experience many miracles. On this special occasion of World Falun Dafa Day, I’d like to share my experience below.

Letting Go of the Deep Grudge Against My Mother

I was born in the 1980s. My father was relocated from the city to live and work in a rural area as part of the “Up to the Mountains and Down to the Countryside Movement.” As a result, I grew up with my paternal grandparents, who were devout Catholics. Although my grandmother never went to school, she could recite the entire Bible. From a young age, they always told me, “If people slap you on your right cheek, you must turn the left cheek to them as well.” Under their guidance, I developed a modest and tolerant personality, always ready to help others. Many neighbors commented that I was a good kid. Although I felt a little lonely occasionally, I enjoyed a relatively easy and free childhood.

When I turned 12, my parents returned to Beijing with my younger brother. The following few years, living with them became a nightmare for me. My mother was very competitive and driven by her interests. To her, I was just a hopeless bookworm who knew nothing except to read books. She often blamed my grandmother for ruining me.

During those few years, my mother verbally abused me every day, often resorting to beating me. I frequently cried during meals and went to bed with tears in my eyes. By the time I reached 20, I endured a long list of ailments, including gastric disease, rhinitis, nasal cyst, and lumbar disc herniation. What saddened me even more was how much care and love my mother gave to my younger brother, which stood in sharp contrast to the way she treated me.

I often contemplated ending my life. However, each time I had these thoughts, a quote from Mencius would come to my mind, “When Heaven is about to confer a great responsibility on man, it will first fill his heart with suffering, toil his sinews and bones, expose his body to hunger, subject him to extreme poverty, confound his journey with setbacks and troubles, so as to stimulate his alertness, toughen his nature, eventually bridging his incompetence gap and prepare him for the task.”

Since I was little, I had seen beings in other dimensions and I’ve always felt that someone was looking after me from Heaven. I always believed that I had a grand task to fulfill, and this belief has given me faith to live on.

After I started high school, I finally left my parents and moved in with my aunt. I barely went back home to visit my parents, and a few texts with my father were the only communication I had with them.

A few years later, I attended school in Europe, where I met my husband-to-be, who introduced me to Falun Dafa. Having had my own experience seeing beings in other dimensions, I had always rejected atheism, which is heavily promoted by the Chinese Communist Party. My background helped me to assimilate to Dafa’s teaching quickly.

After reading On Dafa, the opening article of Zhuan Falun, which is the main text of Dafa, I realized the profound level attained by Master Li. As I continued reading Zhuan Falun, I came to realize that I must let go of my resentment towards my mother. I understood that our past karmic ties were the main reason for the difficulties between us. If I want to embark on the spiritual journey to return to my original, true self, I must resolve the conflicts with my mother and treat her with compassion.

I took the initiative to call my mother. As soon as she realized it was me, she immediately passed the phone to my father. After briefly talking with my father, I told him, “Dad, I want to talk to mom.” He was initially shocked, but then happily passed the phone to my mom. As expected, my mom began to verbally abuse me. However, I no longer felt angry or resentful, but felt it was funny and laughable. At first my mother was taken aback by my reaction, but then she began to laugh as well.

After I called my mother that day, she never verbally abused me again. Two years later, after I gave birth to my son, I called her and thanked her for giving birth to me. My words touched her, and she cried.

Severe Back Condition Disappeared

I have struggled with health issues since childhood. Living with my mother for several years caused significant mental distress, taking a further toll on my health. The nasal cyst I had developed began pressing against my optic nerve, almost causing me to become blind. In addition, I also had a severe lumbar muscle strain, which was caused by a fall during a PE class in middle school. I didn’t receive timely treatment after hurting my tailbone, and the condition gradually developed into a lumbar disc herniation. I couldn’t carry heavy objects, stand, or walk for long periods. Every winter, there was always a time when I was unable to move and I would be confined to bed. The doctor also warned me that I may not be able to carry a baby as my back couldn’t support the weight. I was only 18 back then.

Two weeks after I started practicing Falun Dafa, a friend asked for my help carrying a large suitcase downstairs. It was only after I had gone from the fourth floor to the first floor, that I realized I didn’t have any back pain. This would have been unimaginable in the past! I was overwhelmed with excitement and gratitude toward Master Li, the founder of Falun Dafa.

Since then, most of my health issues have been resolved one after another. I was able to carry my baby to full term without any back pain. When I told my doctor friend who examined me in China, he said this was unbelievable.

My son is now 20 years old. Blessed by Dafa, he has grown up healthy. When we go out together, many people mistaken me for his older sister, as thanks to Dafa’s blessing, my appearance hasn’t changed much over the years.

Letting Go of Personal Interests

Over ten years ago, my parents purchased a third house in Beijing. My father asked me if they could just put my brother’s name on the property. I said without hesitation, “No problem. Since I can’t stay with you and it’s mainly my brother who takes care of you, it makes sense to give the house to him.” They promised that they wouldn’t give everything to my brother and would leave some to me.

A few years ago, when my parents visited me, I learned from my mother that they had sold one of the other two houses and given the money to my brother. Now my brother and his wife live in the third house, and my parents live in the remaining one. This meant that none of the houses involved me. I was a little surprised and felt they didn’t respect me. But then I reminded myself that since I had decided to take up cultivation, I should let go of any vested interest.

Now a few years have passed and my parents haven’t mentioned the houses at all. I heard from a friend who is close to my family that they all felt it was unfair to me and that my father didn’t handle the situation well. I told her that everything comes in exchange for our virtue. While I’m not super rich, I live a decent and healthy life and have a happy family. None of this can be bought with money. She said she admires my generosity and sees the greatness of Dafa in me.

Overcoming the Language Barrier

I live in the city where the federal government is located. During a conference of federal representatives, the local Dafa coordinator asked if anyone could go and collect petitions. Our city had very few Dafa practitioners—only three married couples. Besides my husband and me, one of the couples had recently moved from China and couldn’t speak the local language, and the other couple was unavailable. Since I wasn’t working at the time, I was the best person to take on the task.

I had only studied German for a month and wasn’t fluent, which made me worry whether I could express myself clearly. Then I remembered what Master taught us in Zhuan Falun:

“Almost all the matter that constitutes every space of our universe can be found in this gong. It is more appropriate for us to call it an energy field, and so we normally call it an energy field.” (Lecture Three, Zhuan Falun)

In that case, doesn’t language itself also materially exist and can be a gift from the divine? As a Dafa practitioner, how could a language barrier prevent me from sharing the facts about Dafa? This opportunity was very precious and I shouldn’t let it pass me by.

With a simple thought, I went to the building where the representatives were holding their meeting. I spoke confidently with almost all of them and smoothly answered their questions. One person even commented that my German was great and asked whether I had attended a local school. Another representative asked if I had grown up in Germany. When I told them that I had only studied German for one month, they were all amazed.

My husband was in disbelief when I showed him the signatures that I had collected that day. He asked me how I answered their questions, so I repeated what I had said to the representatives. Even though I had never learned some of the words or expressions, they just came to me naturally. I knew Master had given me wisdom.

Although I didn’t have the chance to spend more time studying German after that, I could still speak fluently to people in various truth-clarification activities and in daily life. I feel that Master opened a door for me.

A few years later, when we traveled to the French-speaking districts in Switzerland to promote Shen Yun, a similar miracle occurred. Although I had never learned French, I quickly recalled a few sentences to introduce Shen Yun, and the practitioners praised my pronunciation.

One day while I was manning the ticket booth by myself, I miraculously understood all the questions the customers asked me in French, and I was able to answer them in French as well. Only when I had lengthy conversations with several of them, I had to speak in German or English to fully express myself. When I reflect on that moment now, it seems pretty amazing. With Master strengthening me, I sold 16 tickets that day.

Epilogue

Over the past 23 yeas of practicing cultivation in Dafa, I have continually worked on improving myself and eliminating my attachments. With my husband and son both practicing Dafa, our family is harmonious. My son looks for opportunities to introduce Dafa to his friends. Unlike many of his peers who often have trouble communicating with their parents, he is very open with us and enjoys our time together. In the days ahead, I will continue to improve my character and elevate my mind, in order to reach new spiritual heights.

(Selected Submission in Celebration of 2025 World Falun Dafa Day)