Study the Fa and Do the Exercises with Sincerity and Respect

(Minghui.org) I have been practicing Falun Dafa for many years and have encountered numerous trials and tribulations on the path of cultivation. When I didn’t know how to look inward, troubles would simply overwhelm me. When I studied the Fa sincerely and rectified myself, Master would constantly enlighten me, and gradually I was able to look inward, and at the same time, the tribulations would naturally disappear. Let me share my process of rectifying myself in respecting Master and the Fa.

Because I had omissions in my cultivation, I was arrested in 2012 while clarifying the truth to my neighbors, and was persecuted in prison for three years. When I returned home, my vision was blurry. It took me a month to finish reading Zhuan Falun. I had no choice but to buy reading glasses, and even then, I could barely study the Fa.

A practitioner said, “You were persecuted for three years, why don’t you look inward?” At that time, I didn’t know how to look inward, so I studied the Fa, but I couldn’t keep up studying because I was busy with ordinary things, like taking care of my daughter’s child and cooking meals.

I calmed down and thought: “I gave in to the evil’s demands when I was persecuted, and said things I shouldn’t have and did things I shouldn’t have.” I wrote a solemn statement to confess to Master, and at the same time wrote an article exposing the persecution. That year I also participated in suing Jiang Zemin (former Chinese Communist Party leader who initiated the persecution of Falun Dafa). After that, my eyes could see clearly, and I could read the Dafa books without the need for reading glasses.

At the time, I carelessly placed Dafa books, an MP3 player for exercise music, Minghui Weekly, and truth materials everywhere around my house. Sometimes I would put Dafa books and the MP3 under my pillow for easy reading and exercises. One day, my granddaughter used a pen to draw a line on the page of “On Dafa” in one of my Dafa books. I looked outward and thought that the child was too naughty. Then the toilet in the bathroom leaked. My daughter and my husband were at work, so there was no time to find someone to fix it, and it kept leaking. I was aware that there was something wrong with my cultivation.

I started to correct myself by doing the exercises more carefully. Before, I never washed my face, combed my hair, or rinsed my mouth before doing the exercises in the morning. I would just put on my pajamas and start the exercises. When it was cold in the room, I would cover myself with a blanket or put a small blanket over my legs while studying the Fa. After recognizing this attachment, I had the thought to correct myself. I washed my face, combed my hair, rinsed my mouth, and dressed neatly before doing the exercises. I put Minghui Weekly and truth materials in a clean place, and put Dafa books and Master’s portraits in a clean and special place. I put Dafa books in a clean box, and the speaker for doing the exercises in a small box. I completely corrected the habit of placing Dafa books carelessly. As I started to correct myself in this way, the toilet in the bathroom, which had been leaking for four months, stopped leaking naturally without repair.

When studying the Fa, I would double-cross my legs. When I got tired from crossing them, I would kneel to study the Fa. I tried to pronounce each word accurately when reading. In the past, I didn’t correct misspoken words when reading the Dafa books because I was afraid of trouble and wanted to make things easier and faster, but I didn’t realize that this was disrespectful to Master and the Fa.

In terms of respecting Master and the Fa, I have strictly required myself to correct every thought and get rid of thoughts such as not cultivating my speech, jealousy, resentment, self-centeredness, arrogance, looking down on other practitioners, showing off, lust, etc. In the process of correcting myself, my cultivation state has gotten better and better.

At the same time, I found the reason I was persecuted in the past: I did not attach importance to respecting Master and the Fa, and I did not fully believe in Master and the Fa. Because I did not cultivate my mind and did not look inward, I did not treat studying the Fa, doing the exercises, sending forth righteous thoughts, distributing truth materials, and clarifying the truth as cultivation. My xinxing was not improving, and I was not able to assimilate to the Fa, so I was persecuted.

Because there were omissions in my cultivation, how many sentient beings could not be saved because of this lack of diligence? The lesson is profound. I hope that other practitioners like me will wake up quickly, and won’t leave regrets about saving sentient beings.